Not a good week for my resolutions – and I’ve had a streak delinquency with keeping my updates posted.
I don’t think that I’ve lost any ground, which relieves me, and I’m trying hard not to beat myself too much about it. I’ve had to work late on a semi-stressful series of projects a lot this month, and had to drive up to Boston last weekend to visit Dad. I thought I’d start fresh in week 7, but then was derailed by stress, fatigue, and needing to work late. I’m hosting a party (resolved: host more social events!) this weekend, which I am well aware will also throw my discipline out of whack.
I’m trying to keep in mind that this is mostly me in panic-mode thinking. Sure, I’d be happier if I’d managed to sail through with few hitches in my discipline. It’s a pleasure to have the satisfaction of keeping to a plan. But the overall goal of these resolutions isn’t to be rigidly disciplined and cleave steadfast to my plans; the goal is to change my living habits to get more from life.
So I haven’t been keeping as well to my diet as I would like – I have been better about not eating when not hungry, and eating better and more healthfully than before.
So I haven’t been exercising as diligently as I would like – I’m paying the price in loss of energy and ebullience and am strongly motivated to get back in the game.
And perhaps I just loaded too many things on my plate, or too many things when life also managed to dump a mess of stuff as well, I can adjust. I can scale back (although this smacks of giving up, something I have issues with. Something I need to overcome). I can learn and move forward.
This weekend I’ll spend Sunday on myself – and I aim to think very carefully about what my resolution focus will be for March.
Don’t think of it as “giving up”, just think of it as reevaluating and choosing a new direction that is best for you. 🙂 If you stick with something that isn’t right or doesn’t work, that is much worse.